Holiday Kickstart

… for my inside and outside to match… but I just couldn’t control my mindless eating.

Waking up Monday morning, determined to be "good".

Sometimes that would last until Wednesday.

Sometimes only until lunch on Monday.

No matter how much I tried, somewhere along the way, I would notice (after the fact) that I had eaten a bunch of food that I didn’t intend on eating, and my clothes kept getting tighter. 

To some people, that might sound strange, but that was my experience ever since I can remember. 

Why did it seem so hard?

Sometimes I would be satisfied with a justification or excuse (we sure seem to have some good ones these days)… but eventually, the consequences of these actions both physically and emotionally were just overwhelming. 

I remember a specific time (which had happened more times than I can count) where once again, I gathered my determination... motivated by an upcoming event where I really wanted to feel and look good.

I calculated the time until the event, and figured if I did a quick plan I could drop down enough to fit into that nice summer dress and feel great. 

Focus, determination, motivation, desire, a plan - I was ready.

And you can probably guess what happened… Ugh...

Willpower failed me. And even if I can muster it for long enough, I always seem to end up right back in the spot where I have to find that old fierce determination all over again.

Exhausted - I knew there had to be another way. 

Why did it seem so easy for some people?  What did they have that I didn’t? 

I went on a mission to find an answer to these questions so I could stop the cycle of never ending trying to muster up the willpower over and over again, just to button my jeans.